Ashley, i love you. I ask that you dont try and fight my fights though. Its foolish to attempt to fight something thats nothing and pointless. I am dumb for trusting her, my whole family could read her like a book. I wouldnt believe it, i wouldnt have any of it. She never had a hold of me in the first place so there was never anything to let go of. I truely am happy lately, yea i have my occasional off days. In general though ive never been happier. I aprciate your thoughts, but you know im non-religious based. What you maybe dont realize is i lean more toward spiritual enlightenments with out the biblical/quranical(?) confinments i believe come with believing in a religion. Dont take that the wrong way, thats how it works for me, its just not for me. It works for you, not for me. Please dont misinterpret my standings. Im being as gental and sensitive as i can.